So, I’ve neglected my writing. I feel like I need to get back into it,
because I need an outlet. I feel that
there are so many factors in my life that I don’t have control over. Everything is coming so fast. I have to say that so far this year I have
grown a lot as a person. Self growth is
important to me because it lets me know that I’m one step closer to where I want
to go in life.
As I sit here in my bed cruising through the channels on the
television I come across the Oxygen channel with the Bad girls club Chicago. The first thing that comes to mind is how in
the world all of these chicks could go on national television with all their
problems and insecurities to help spike ratings. As this question is set in my mind I began to
focus on the show. These girls are
different in many ways. (Race, walks of life, and attitudes) are still so alike
because they all crave attention. Sure
two bitches beating the shit out of each other just because one did not feel
like being bullied by the other, can be entertaining for a while. But as I have to constantly remind myself is
that thousands of impressionable girls are watching this show, and are immolating
what they see these other girls do. Hey it got them their fifteen minutes of
fame, so why not for them?
As I watch these girls on television making a spectacle of them,
a hard truth hits me: Once upon a time that used to be me. No, I won’t go as far to say that I was a
bully, but I was the one that was always quick to pop off and be in a
fight. I did spend a great deal of my
childhood fighting. Even when I was in
my early 20s I spent most of my time fighting other girls, and for what, not
really sure. As far back as I can
remember for every year that past I would do an evaluation on myself. I would examine my failures and my
successes. If you could imagine in the
beginning my failures were greater; from failure in my goals right down to my
family and romantic relationships. With
each passing year I found my successes have outnumbered my failures. These things have helped me grow into a
better me.
Yes, I do have an atomic
temper. It is not good to make me mad, because
I go to a dark place. That is still one
of my bigger character flaws that I am working on. People try so hard to take you out of your
element, out of your character. That’s
nothing but the devil in disguise. I
rebuke that. Some of the triggers for my
temper are when I feel like I’m being attacked.
Back in my day I would not hesitate to put my hands on someone. Now, it’s like what does it solve? Me fighting someone is not going to make me
feel better. I worry that some of these
girls out here are watching this show and are looking to these girls as role models. This is not the definition of a bad girl.
The true definition of a bad girl
is a woman who can go through all of the terrible curves that life throws at
her and still be able to live. To work
hard for what she wants even though she knows that the odds are greatly stacked
against her. To be classy and
professional at all times. I don’t think
that I am all the way there. I am a work
in progress. The bad things that have
happened to me do not define me: they only help build my character stronger. I don’t believe that I am damaged; I change
every year into a more appealing young lady.
I am not by any means telling anyone
to boycott watching bad girls club. We
all find ratchet television entertaining to some level. But all I’m saying is please teach our young
girls out there something more than just how to be baby mommas and whores. Teach them that presentation is key no matter
where they go. Teach them that being original is way better than being part of
the crowd. Advise them that you can be
sexy while still being classy. As I watch
these girls try to use fame to hide behind being insecure, I shake my head, because
they are going about it the wrong way.
Stop using the Bad girl’s club
house as a step program to fix you. You can do that on your own.
Last thought I’ll leave for the
night. Just stop and thank God that you
don’t look like what you’ve been through.
If that were the case, there would be no prosperous young women. Just some food for thought.